February 2018

This is going to be hard for me because I feel like I’m still finding myself, so for now this is the only sufficient answer I may provide to the question of who I am.

The only word I can think of to describe me is Jatinpal. There is no better way I could think to put it. But what does Jatinpal mean? To everyone who knows me it means something different. To me it means many things. I think of myself as a realistic dreamer. I know that it may sound oxymoronic, but allow me to explain. I am always lost in my thoughts, dreaming, wondering, wishing. But I never forget reality. Harsh, unforgiving reality. I think a reason I am a realistic person is due to my past. I’ve been through a lot for somebody my age and it has really influenced me and how I think. But I haven’t lost any of my creativity or hope through it all.

Writing is a huge part of my life. It’s been a form of coping and relaxation for me since I started writing regularly in grade 8. I write to express all my hidden emotions. Due to past experiences, I have issues with trust, and writing allows me to express my emotions without having to worry about being betrayed or exposed. Writing is a form of escape for me also. I can immerse myself in my dreams (or nightmares) and live how i want to. Sometimes I feel unable to describe how I feel with a single word. Occasionally, it takes me a full story or poem to truly describe or represent how I feel. I theme my writings depending on how I am feeling, and releasing my soul onto the page allows me to understand me and my emotions much better. I am a very shy person, so I enjoy writing to express myself instead of speaking. My darkest secrets, even ones that I did not know about, are subtly revealed through the texts I create, and that helps me develop as a person. I can be myself when I write. No masks. Just me. In conclusion, I find writing to be a solution. A solution to all the negatives in life. That is why I write, and that is why I’m in this class.

February 2019

I’m going to write this piece raw as possible and edit it only to fix GUMPS (grammar, usage, mechanics, punctuation, and syntax). No drafts or planning. Just me. I’m doing this because it is representative of who I am. Over the past year, my experiences taught me to be straight forward with things. I have overcome my anxiety for the most part, and only feel anxious when in uncomfortable situations, rather than all the time. I have gained a sense of self-confidence and am now able to recognize positive things about myself. I have improved my work ethic, even though there is still quite a bit of progress to make, I now focus mainly on the important things in life. What are those important things?

A few of the things that I focus my attention on are: my future, my education, my social life, and work. My future is important to me because I have so many plans for what I want my life to be like, but I can not achieve these goals without planning. For example, I chose to give up some of my free time during this past summer to do Social 20-1 in summer school, so that I may take all courses I want/need to this school year. My education is important not only because it builds a foundation for my future, but it shows my improvement as an individual. Obviously a social life is important to maintaining balance in life, so I try to spend at least one day a weekend hanging out with friends outside of school. I like money. Having a steady stream on cash allows me to treat myself to things I enjoy. What are these things I enjoy?

I enjoy writing music, specifically rap. I also enjoy cooking/baking. I don’t watch much TV but when I do it is typically The Food Network. Video games are another interest of mine. Although I do not play often, I do still enjoy to play with my brother or cousins occasionally. My academic interests are chemistry and biology, but I also have a passion for LA although I do not do as well in it as I do in the sciences. Why do I enjoy LA?

English Language Arts is a class that allows me to improve my writing skills and learn more about the human nature through literature such as Lord of the Flies. Improving my writing is meaningful to me because I want to get better at putting my emotions out there. Writing can show me and others emotions of mine that I didn’t even know I felt, as well as portray emotions that otherwise can not be described. Why does this matter?

You may ask why any of this matters, as I often do with nearly everything in life. This small description of me and my changes helps to explain the meaning or purpose of my posts, as well as giv insight to my choices as a writer.

I hope you have enjoyed this little preview into my life, and if you did, please consider reading some of my other posts. Thank you for your time.